I collect the failures of others. The reason is that I stand out more when I see people who are less qualified than me and their failures. My current situation makes me feel happy, and that’s because I’m content. I can justify my laziness by looking at other people’s failures. As a result, I collected only the failures of others in my head.
I met a friend who was about to start a new job not long ago. A new job suited his aptitude, and he was working hard on a business plan. It was my pleasure to support my friend in his challenge. However, there was a problem. He constantly talked about himself when he met me, full of enthusiasm for new jobs. I listened to him with concentration and responded to him a few times, but I was becoming more and more tired. Having nothing to do with my business, it was hard to listen carefully to his stories. As of this point, I am acting following my mind’s order. Here is a rough order.
I pretend to listen to the other person.
I anticipate their failures when I think about their shortcomings.
In my attempt to appear logical, I offer them advice.
My advice hurts the person who listens to me.
I am no longer trusted by them.
They don’t bother me, but somehow I feel guilty about it.
A friend who blames her husband and is anxious about the hardships of life.
My mother who suffers from insomnia and cystitis.
My husband who always talks about his childhood.
I was pushing away the people closest to me and always by my side and keeping their misfortunes in a secret box in my head. If necessary, the secret becomes a sharp thorn that injures them.
So far, all the things I’ve written have become my mind world, where I’ve lived.
What should I do from now on? Meditation is my best solution. Each day, I throw away the experiences of failure and selfishness through meditation. Slowly, my thoughts change, and accordingly, my actions change.
1. Slandering others is gradually decreasing.
2. Although I listen to people who gossip in front of me, I am not biased toward them.
3. Success stories intrigue me more than failure stories.
4. Cleaning and studying English take up more time than thinking.
5. It is important for me to see myself and others as they are.
6. I acknowledge my mistakes and ask for forgiveness if I have done something wrong to others.
The highest form of intelligence is the true mind. We all possess the true mind. It is simply hidden from the selfish and negative human mind. Our human minds must be thrown away in order to regain this true mind.
What is more important and urgent than pursuing a prettier, smarter, wealthier, and happier me than yesterday is to look back on myself and throw away the wrong me. Today is the day to get things started.
