Teaching meditation to young people is what I do as a teacher. I have been doing this for five years and have had numerous successes and failures. Failure teaches me valuable lessons. It is a tedious process. Admitting my mistakes and failures took courage. Whenever I failed, I wanted to deny reality and run away, but my colleagues helped me. And meditation allows me to let go of negative emotions, such as feelings of defeat. It takes time to develop a high emotional intelligence, just like everything else in life. It is a valuable virtue that can only be attained through hard work. The following is a story about my failure experience. Your success will be built on my failure.
self-awareness – me who blames others
An external environment does not determine whether a meditation class is successful or unsuccessful.
During the drive home the day I ruined class, I blamed people and circumstances for spoiling my perfect meditation class.
It happened yesterday, for example. When I visited a classroom for the first time, the homeroom teacher was not friendly. Moreover, the children were so talkative and distracted. I didn’t receive any help from her other than watching my class from across the room. Several times I had to pause lessons due to the voices of 10-year-olds drowning out my voice. I became angry and panicked, and I couldn’t even finish the class I had prepared. Today’s class was distracting and confusing in a way that was far from perfect, in my opinion.
I wrote the class review for that day after coming home with an uneasy feeling. In writing, I honestly expressed my thoughts. Then I realized it. It wasn’t about the teachers who didn’t help me, the distracted kids, and the atrocious classes.
- I perceived the homeroom teacher as indifferent because of my low self-esteem.
- I couldn’t embrace distracted kids.
- There were fantasies about the perfect class in my head.
I ended my class diary for the day like below after organizing my thoughts.
- Since 10-year-olds are easily distracted and their concentration is short, I decided to organize physical activities.
- To give a good class in any environment, I need to prepare and practice more.
Let go of my obsessive compulsiveness that my classes should be perfect and all children should meditate admirably. My obsessive-compulsive disorder is a self-centered mind that opposes the desire to help children through meditation.
Through classes with children, I am also growing internally, just as teenagers do. My self-esteem is low and I don’t dare to admit my mistakes immediately. Every time I admit my failure, my heart breaks, but little by little I’m getting better. Meditation enabled me to be self-aware and admit my mistakes.
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