- know how to love me.
- Don’t have much gratitude.
- Narrow-minded and selfish.
- Have so many negative thoughts and hindrances in one’s mind so it is hard to act and eventually it is difficult to sustain what one is doing.
Everyone has some of the above matters bit by bit. But a person who is the more applicable above is more likely to have strong jealousy. It was me who have all that list.
As a simple example, I had a friend who was class president in high school. She was flexible, so she got along well with friends and confidently stepped up to the front. On the contrary, it was very difficult for me to talk about myself and get along with my friends. I felt jealous of her and wished she was worse than me. I was a gloomy student who constantly compared myself to others and had a strong sense of inferiority.
There was a turning point that changed my whole life. In university, I met an opportunity to meditate, so I started. Meditation helps me to change my life. It helps me to see my mind frankly. There are many negative thoughts in my mind, and so many stories are piled up. For instance memories with parents, comparison with my brother, failure moments, etc, so many things. The reasons why I was jealous were all within me. I start to discard those hindrances from my mind.
I realized that I was not able to stop being jealous because there was no true mind within. Because there was no truth within, I was living as a slave from so many negative thoughts that I accumulated from my lived life. I discarded those mind. I discarded my lived life and habits through meditation.
As I let go of my lived life and habits, the true mind emerged. More I discard I could feel lighter. As my wounds and sense of inferiority were revealed, they began to disappear. When my sense of inferiority disappeared, I didn’t feel the need to be jealous. It was amazing. My mind became calm and clear. I’ve experienced so many changes.
We can’t stop jealous just by thinking that I’ll stop jealous. When you clear your hindrance from your mind and recover the truth within, you can naturally be free from the bondage of jealousy. If you want to know how to clear your mind and find true peace within, plz refer to below🌱
